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Ch 1 - The Dinner Ch 2 - Mickey Ch 3 - Elizabeth Ch 4 - The Poster Ch 5 - Self-Discovery Outing Ch 6 - Shawn’s Boyfriend Ch 7 - Taking The Step Ch 8 - My First Student Meeting Ch 9 - Don’t Trash Ch 10 Meditation & the Wreck Ch 11 In The Desert Ch 12 After The Desert Ch 13 The Ebell Theater Ch 14 So, You Want To Be A Teacher? Ch 15 The Visit Ch 16 The Golden Oldies Ch 17 The Correction Ch 18 The Gift Ch 19 Disneyland Ch 20 The Letter Ch 21 Starting Out Ch 22 First Night As A Teacher Ch 23 The Thank You Card Ch 24 Priorities Ch 25 Corrected Again Ch 26 Returning Home Ch 27 The Call Ch 28 On The Road To New York Ch 29 Christmas At Golden’s Bridge Ch 30 Jumpy Ch 31 The Initiation Ch 32 Time To Leave Ch 33 Keeping It Clean Ch 34 Looking Back Epilogue   Visit Shiva's web site   About Rama

Chapter 11 - In The Desert

The desert was a little cool.  It was in the late fall and I could see that it might be getting a little cold later on in the evening.  I was glad that I had listened to Rama's advice as to what we should wear.

My fellow students and I had traveled to a gorge in the Anza Borrego desert with Rama.  I had been told that these outings were one of the most transformative experiences that we had with Rama. 

I found a small pile of sand to sit down on and looked into the gorge.  I tried to meditate, but I was too excited and apprehensive.  One never knew what would happen out here. 

I had spent the last week tying up loose ends.  I cleaned my apartment meticulously.  I made sure that all my clothes were washed and neatly hung or folded in my dresser. I then wrote a letter to my friends and family telling them how much I appreciated all that they had done for me and how much I loved and wished them well. I made out a will and stated that I wanted to be cremated and to whom my personal belongings were to be distributed.  This letter and will were placed in the dresser drawer along with my socks.  In doing this, I felt that I had nothing holding me back or left unfinished. 

I was determined to be ready to leave this world if it was time.  So, here I was sitting out in the desert ready to make whatever shifts needed to be made.  I felt I had my life pretty tight.

Rama arrived and started walking up the gorge.  After about a half mile he stopped and gave us instructions as to the way we were to conduct ourselves during this trek.  We then continued walking for another half mile.  During this time the mountains started to glow and undulate, almost as if they were taking huge deep breaths.  Out of the corners of my eyes I saw Indian-like figures standing on the cliffs overlooking the gorge.

Rama stopped and had us look at a mountain.  As we gazed at it, it disappeared!  Then it reappeared.  Rama had us look at him.  He started to glow and seemed to change shape.  He sat down in a lotus position.  As I watched him, there was this rectangular blue object that seemed to hover over him and turn and shift like some kind of computer graphic.  I felt everything inside me tighten and goosebumps sprouted all over my arms. 

When Rama stood up he asked what we had just witnessed.  I raised my hand and related what I had just seen.  Rama's eyes lit up and he said, "Yes!  You saw it!  What did he just see?"

A woman standing a few feet away said, "It was your occult body."

I felt totally rattled, and yet, in spite of my agitated state, I knew that it was all so perfect. 

Throughout the evening I watched the stars swirl around and Rama disappear, grow large, and walk across the sand leaving no footprints.  Later he shot energy out of his hand and lit up a mountain. I observed the moon bob around the sky like it was a kite on a string and then disappear into the cloudless sky for a few minutes.

At one point Rama started talking about the various winds.  As he talked about the wind from the west and its qualities, a wind started blowing from the west.  When he talked about the north wind, the wind shifted and started blowing from the north.  Then the east and finally the south.  Each time he would mention the various winds, there would be a gust of wind from that direction.  It all seemed so natural and not at all unusual.  It wasn't until later that I realized the full impact of what he had done! 

Through all of the magic and displays of power, I had a sneaking sense that something else was happening inside.  It was as if all these displays of spiritual power were just distractions to occupy our attention while some really powerful changes were taking place underneath.

After about four hours we started walking out.  The walk out seemed difficult to me.  I had a hard time keeping myself oriented.  The whole area seemed to me completely non-physical.  Only lines of energy and power configuring in unique ways and combinations of density. 

When we reached the mouth of the gorge, Rama had us take a few minutes to review the night and to thank the gorge. 

The drive back home was a time for me to ground myself and reflect.  I knew that some changes had been made but I wasn't aware what they might be. 

I soon realized that any speculation I had about that evening did not even come close to the depth and impact it would have on my life!

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